Have you ever been in a bad relationship and you’ve known you should leave, but for whatever reason you stayed, only to have the other party break up with you before you could break up with them?
That was my truth around this time last year.
A year ago, God released me from a job I knew from day one I had no business accepting—it was just an all-around bad fit. For years, my heart’s desire was to work for myself again, but honestly, I was scared to take that step of faith—bills and stability are very real, especially when you have kids. God did for me what I didn’t have the courage to do for myself, and He did it in a way I never would have imagined, even in my wildest writer dreams.
Every day for the last year, I have replayed the events from that day in my mind. I’ve not shed one tear about what happened, and I’ve laughed at the fact that I was online applying for other jobs when my supervisor came to get me and how I had to keep from grinning while the HR director was trying to keep from crying as she was telling me I was being let go. That scene will likely end up in a book one day. Lol. Even though I immediately was excited and felt like a weight was being lifted from me, the human side of me didn’t like how it happened. See, I’ve always prided myself on being a good employee and trying to leave people and situations better than I’ve found them, so to have someone imply otherwise crushed me. I’ve asked myself what I could have done differently in order to break up with that job before they could break up with me, but the truth is I wanted to be exactly where God has me: working for myself. In spite of how it happened, it doesn’t mean I’m not good at what I do. It simply means that job wasn’t a good fit for me. God has shown me that truth time and time again because even in the middle of a pandemic, not only am I at peace, but I continue getting work in the same field.
I’m sharing this to say, we don’t get to decide how God blesses us. The truth is, no matter how it happens, a blessing is still a blessing. Today, I thank God for releasing me to my purpose, for blessing and keeping me and my family in the middle of a pandemic, for allowing me to work from home while schools have been shut down, for humbling me because I know humility precedes promotion, for opening doors no man can open and closing doors no man can close.
Whatever you’re going through today, maybe what is happening is really a blessing in disguise. Although it might not be happening the way you want, remember, a blessing is still a blessing.
